Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Waning Moon
Sunny and pleasant
Very intense few days on the trip. It was great, but it was all very intense.
Saturday was the first meeting of the cozy book club. Small turnout, but enthusiastic. We are moving it to a different day and time for next month, hoping it will work for more people. I was very tired ā Iād been up for several days preparing the materials, washing the china, making the food, packing everything. Load in and load out werenāt bad, but it still took time.
I was exhausted by the time I got home. Read Sharon Shinnās ROYAL AIRS on the deck. Iām a huge fan of her books anyway, and this is in the same series as TROUBLED WATERS. I read the library copy, but Iāll be buying my own.
Packed what I needed for my trip to New York. Decided I was going to try to travel as light as possible.
To bed early. Up early on Sunday. Wrote 1000 words on INITIATE. Packed the car, ate a good breakfast. Hit the road about a half hour later than I wanted ā mostly because I wanted to finish the sequence I was writing on INITIATE.
Traffic wasnāt bad, and it was a beautiful day to drive. I listened to MacTalla Mor on the way down. Stopped in Niantic at the Book Barn. Sold some duplicate books Iād accumulated over the years, and some books my mom wanted to get rid of. And then bought books. And books. And books. It was wonderful. I gorged myself on various titles and authors Iād been looking for, and on some I wanted to try.
Stopped in Old Saybrook. Found some silver flatware ā some in my pattern and some in a complimentary pattern ā and a small painted stool I will varnish to protect the paint and use for plants.
Hit Greenwich Library around 3 PM. Because, of course, if Iām going somewhere, where is my first refuge? The library. Texted my friend to let her know I arrived. Settled in with Sarah Monetteās MELUSINE ā and was captivated from the first page.
I was supposed to be writing.
My friend contacted me and wanted me to come out to the small island sanctuary where her family has had a house for generations. So I drove to Rye and parked at the dock and waited for her. Had to jump into the small boat ā not sure if itās a skiff or what. Whatever it was, it was small and low to the water. And I canāt swim. To say I was terrified is an understatement. But I kept my cool outwardly and didnāt moan.
We went out to the island, which is beautiful, and there was a lively group there of people who like to have actual conversation, not just griping or gossip. So that was fun. And one had worked for the Sound Tigers the same year I trotted around with them doing research, yet our paths hadnāt crossed. So it was fun to share stories about our favorite hockey boys. I canāt believe itās been a dozen years since I spent time with them. Theyāre all men now, most of them are out of hockey and with families of their own. It feels like months, not years.
We came back later than expected ,on the tiny boat, in the dark. I was scared, but didnāt outwardly panic, even when we hit a piece of driftwood and I was sure we were going to trip over. I was actually more worried about the longhand chapter of INITIATE in my bag than anything else. But it was all good.
It was odd driving around in Rye. I felt absolutely nothing. I spent many years in the town ā from first grade through high school. So many experiences that shaped me happened there. And I felt . ..nothing. Not even the basic curiosity I usually feel in a new town. Not anger or resentment or nostalgia or . . . anything. It was like entering a void. Which was weird. I felt like I should feel something, even if it was negative or uncomfortable.
Didnāt sleep well, lots of odd dreams, but was up early and on a train to the city just after 8. Rye is only 25 miles from New York, a much shorter distance than Kingston is from Boston ā yet the round trip train ticket is more expensive.
Hit the city early. Walked around. Spent some time writing in Bryant Park, by the main branch of the New York Public Library (see a pattern with my first choice of refuge?). I had, after all, to write my 1K on INITIATE, or Iād be out of sorts all day.
Then, it was to the Morgan Library (patterns much?) for my 10:30 appointment. The Department Head/Curator who took time to speak with me was amazing. Again, it was invigorating to have a real conversation, and it ranged along a wide spectrum of topics. I learned A LOT, and he also gave me confidence that many of my initial instincts in dealing with what Iām dealing with are correct (even if Iām not always toeing the usual library line on some things). Weāve both done a lot of different things in life that brought us to working in libraries and we share a passion for books and learning and information and how we like to handle/acquire/live with books that is often similar. It was a wonderful experience. Heās someone with whom I want to keep in touch, and someone for whom I hope I can be a resource for the weird information I tend to accumulate. His kindness and generosity of spirit towards someone whoās basically making it up as she goes along in this whole library adventure was deeply appreciated.
It was later than I expected when I got out of there (I expected he might have 15 or 20 minutes to spare, and we talked for nearly two hours ā I felt like I was a time hog). I wanted to see what had changed. New York is still vibrant, and it was nice to be around its diversity. The pace felt slower, which was odd. I felt like I was at my old NYC pace, but people around me werenāt. Maybe I was simply in areas with tourists.
I swung by Christieās, just for the heck of it, and was lucky enough that they were having a viewing of Asian Art. I got to talk to people (more real conversations) about textiles and ceramics. They couldnāt answer all of my questions, so now I have to do some research on my own. Which is just fine, because I didnāt really have the language to ask properly what I wanted to know. But Christieās has always treated me well and going in there is always a pleasure. I learn a lot and get visual stimulation and the impact of actual valued and valuable art works that one canāt get in many other places. The emotional impact is very different between a photograph of something from the 1700s and the actual object.
Then, of course, I was close to running late. I grabbed some watermelon for lunch on the move as I headed up through Hellās Kitchen (name it something gentrified all you want, it will ALWAYS be Hellās Kitchen) to Lincoln Center. Hit the Library for the Performing Arts and had my meeting with the curators from the Billy Rose Theatre Collection.
Again, very generous with time and resources and cautions. They gave me a good baseline for how things are usually done. I saw the archives ā so much wonderful history is in there, some of which is history I studied that influenced me; some of which is my personal history, people who actually shaped my career and my vision of a career in theatre. I asked a lot of questions, got a lot of information.
By the time I left, I was on overload. I was going to make another stop, almost made it to the building, and just couldnāt. Spread me with butter and serve me on a plate, because I was toast. I did, however, run into a store and buy a new tote bag for all the information Iād accumulated.
I headed to Sosa Borella (a favorite hangout from my days on WICKED and where I had my first book launch party), had something to eat (because I was ready to pass out) and a glass of wine. Listened to the first world problems of some yuppies nearby, thinking, āwow, if I told you some of my stories, youād run screamingā, but kept my mouth shut. Costume Imp was the first to join me, and then two other friends. We had a great dinner and catch up, and even caught a train back at a reasonable time.
Caught up with the friend with whom I stayed, made sure I was properly packed. Up early on Tuesday morning, wrote 1K on INITIATE. In the car a little after 8 to head for the Asian grocery store in White Plains ā which didnāt open until 10 that day. The traffic was backed up, so I took backroads until I got ahead of the problem, then hit the Merritt and headed back. I was working on potential plot threads for INITIATE, following the threads, deciding which to keep, which to develop, which to toss.
Stopped in Mystic on the way home, at Mystical Elements. I needed to stock up on aquamarines and bloodstones ā neither of which they had. But they had some moonstones and a Botswana Agate I needed, so I got those, and some candles. And I got some hematite rings for the thumbs. Then headed over to Silk Road, for a bagua mirror (found a GORGEOUS one), and picked up a necklace and a moonstone ring to replace a ring Iād lost when packing the car at home on Sunday morning. Iāve worn eight rings on my fingers for years ā now I have the full ten. Also got a nice pendant.
Back in the car, home around 3. Unpacked, settled in, read the rest of MELUSINE. Obsessed with the book, the gorgeous writing, the world-building. Finished it (all 496 pages) and started in on VIRTU, the next book.
To bed early ā exhausted ā in spite of all the reading and the plotting and the this and the that.
Up early this morning ā 1K on INITIATE, starting a new section, layering in some other stuff I need to put in to widen the world.
To Barnstable Law Library for a meeting of the Reference Committee. It was terrific, great resource, and I applied for a card for our library, so we can access resources. Had some terrific conversations with some of my fellow librarians.
Stopped at Nirvana to treat myself to a CafĆ© Mocha and headed to work, where things were a bit in turmoil, and my desk was stacked to the rafters ā which is fine, since itās boxes of books. A couple of things that were promised to be handled while I was gone hadnāt been, which caused a slight case of the crankies on my part, but theyāre now handled and nobody died, so itās really not that big a deal. An annoyance, not a catastrophe. We also had a meeting for a proposal for a project in conjunction with Heritage Garden that I really, really want to do, and the Youth Services Librarian created a beautiful design. I also have to write a proposal for my bossās presentation for a small librariesā conference in Sturbridge at the end of October. Plus unpack all the boxes, and go through the books withdrawn via weeding.
Itās almost the end of the work day, so Iāll do what I can do, then descend into VIRTU ā although I do need to write more on INITIATE tonight. I didnāt have three eight hour days to devote to it this week, and my characters are annoyed with me, which causes internal stress. I ordered the other two books in the series ā there are four and Iād only found two in Niantic, not knowing there were four or realizing how hard Iād fall for these two. I am going to be very protective and possessive of my copies, because I will keep going back to this series for both enjoyment and because, structurally, they are so well done.
I also have to prepare for tomorrow morningās Marine Life Center Board Meeting and set up for Short Story Group here before I go, since I will be late coming in.
It will take a few days to settle in again. I kind of feel like Iām floating between worlds right now. Iām surprised how easily I slipped back into New York mode, and Iām glad I could genuinely enjoy New York City, without feeling like I was missing anything, and still being convinced that leaving when I did was the right thing to do.
I am, however, being faced with other decisions and more change in the coming months. Iād like to sit and plan, but every time I do that, it backfires, so I will just have to trust my instincts.
Devon