Wed. Sept. 29, 2021: Disrupted Sleep

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Wednesday, September 29, 2021

Waning Moon

Pluto, Saturn, Jupiter, Neptune, Chiron, Uranus, Mercury Retrograde

Sunny and cool

Yesterday was a calm, quiet day. I did my script coverages, I read more scripts, I read part of the book for review. I caught up on email. I worked on the novel, and on some notes. I answered necessary emails. I got some unpacking done. Got some research done on a project.

Nothing major, just a day with a nice rhythm to it.

Overnight, now, that wasn’t much fun. Charlotte woke me a little after one. It took a bit to get her settled down. Then Tessa got me up at 10 to 3. If they were quiet, it wouldn’t matter so much, but they are noisy, and I don’t want to disturb the neighbors. I tried putting Tessa in “her” room and shutting the door. Louder howling. I put Charlotte in the sewing room and took Tessa in my room, but Tessa rummaged and lectured and fussed until I gave up at 4:30. I fed them all, and then Tessa and Charlotte fussed at each other. I don’t know what to do to keep them quiet at night. They’re perfectly healthy; they’re not hungry. They’re just awake, and want me awake, too. If we were still in a house, I could just let them yell all night and ignore them, but I can’t do that to the neighbors here. By giving them what they want to shut them up, it gives them permission to keep doing it.

By the time I left for the laundromat, I was already exhausted. But I was the first and only one there, and got my laundry done quickly. It’s a little creepy at first, but I stay alert and am ready to bring out the New York if necessary.

Script coverage today, some LOIs, some short articles. I might run some errands, or I might wait until tomorrow.

Nothing earth-shattering on the home front (other than not getting enough sleep). They got used to being up with me when I woke up in the middle of the night to worry for all those months. Now that I want to sleep through the night, it’s no longer their routine. So I somehow have to gentle them into that kind of routine again.

I like having quiet days, where I can work at my own pace and not feel rushed or overly stressed. Now, if I could only get enough sleep. . .

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Mon. July 2, 2018: Calm #Upbeat Authors

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Monday, July 2, 2018
Waning Moon
Jupiter Retrograde
Saturn Retrograde
Pluto Retrograde
Neptune Retrograde
Mars Retrograde

There are two kinds of calm. One is the kind others try to impose on you, usually when you make them uncomfortable by holding your boundaries and standing up for your rights. Don’t be manipulated.

The other kind of calm is the calm you need in order to function in these dark times. It’s the calm you have to pull from your own depths in order to stay sane and focused.

That can be helped by external stimuli. I love the beach in winter — that’s why I moved to Cape Cod. I like it in summer, but can’t get to it with all the tourists! The ocean helps calm me. A walk on the beach, yoga on the beach, meditation — all of that helps me even out.

A walk in the woods will do something similar. Sometimes I need water, sometimes I need trees. Sitting on my back deck, looking out over the yard, helps, too. I often get some of my best work done out there in decent weather. Since it’s a covered deck, I can also sit out in the rain and work!

Sitting on my meditation cushion, morning and evening, helps to. It’s a correction for my emotions and thoughts that can swirl out of control. It allows me to regain perspective, because it is from the place of perspective that we can make our best decisions.

While some of my best writing comes when I ride a wave of emotion, revisions are best done from calm.

I also have built a “space of calm” in my imagination. A place to which I can mentally place myself if my day is difficult and I need a few minutes of respite. I can turn inwards and ground there. I can’t go into detail publicly — the fact that the space is private, known only to me, is vital.

Find what works for you. Make sure that “calming down” is YOUR choice, and not something someone else wants to impose on you, not for your own good, but for their agenda. Trust your own instincts, that you know when and how to stay calm, and when and how to utilize your anger or any other emotion. It could save your life.
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