Fri. May 28, 2021: In the Transition Cycle

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Friday, May 28, 2021

Waning Moon

Pluto Retrograde

Saturn Retrograde

Mercury Goes Retrograde tomorrow

Partly cloudy and pleasant

A post went up over on Gratitude and Growth yesterday about the garden. I will miss having a garden when we leave.

Wednesday was a full moon AND a lunar eclipse. With two retrogrades, and a third looming (Mercury is always the most challenging retrograde for me).

However, big changes and big decisions are necessary. I can’t be held hostage by the retrogrades. What I can do is understand the energy shifts, and then use them the best way I can to support what needs to happen in my life.

Yes, I like to hunker down and be a hermit during serious retrogrades; that is not an option for me this time around.

What IS necessary is to use the retrograde energy to make positive changes.

Retrogrades slow things down; they are also about resolving unresolved issues. Moving, life and job and location and career directions have all been unresolved for several cycles. I’ve been sorting through options, trying to find something that works for where I am and where I want to be. So even though there are multiple retrogrades stacking up, the fact that I’m resolving these issues clears the way for things to open when things go direct in October.

Instead of focusing on the obstacles and challenges of the retrogrades, I’m trying to recognize that there will be obstacles and challenges, but focus on the enormous changes necessary in order to clear the path for something better.

One of the things I need to work on during the retrogrades is being kinder to myself. I’ve been cruel to myself, and that doesn’t solve anything.

To catch you up on everything:

Wednesday was my last day with the onsite client. I came in and wrapped up the few things that still needed attention. I’ve basically written a handbook about how I did various things, making it clear that it doesn’t have to be done that way just because that’s the way I did it; everything can be adapted to suit changing needs.

All the office computers and the client’s personal devices connected to the office computers went down. She couldn’t understand why I couldn’t fix it. For the 70 millionth time, I said, “Because I’m not an IT person.” We had to call the IT guy who comes in to fix things so he could re-network everything.

The client was negative, negative, negative about everything having to do with the house hunting. On the one hand, it was “this will be a good fresh start, I want what’s best for you” and on the other it was about how the landlord I was meeting the next day was bound to try to scam me, and how I “couldn’t” sign a contract until July because of Mercury retrograde. Well, I’m not going to lose my next home because of astrology. I’m going to trust my instincts, and do what needs to be done.

It was absolute chaos by the time I had to leave at noon. There was barely a goodbye, and certainly not a “thank you for your work.” Part of me was a little hurt by that; I’ve been there nearly four years. Another part of me was relieved that there wasn’t any fuss. A third part of me (because I have many facets – yes, there’s some sarcasm involved in that comment) also feels that we’re all going through a lot right now, and we just have to cut each other breaks. The reality was that it’s all fine, and we’re all starting in new directions that are best for ALL of us. I need work that is more aligned with what I do and my career goals; they need a combination of warehouse worker, data entry clerk, and receptionist as they tackle the reopening challenges. All of this is positive.

There was a huge sense of both exhaustion and relief as I drove away.

After over a year of being expected to die for my employer, I am finished. I am working fully remote. The fact that it wound up happening on a full moon is good. Now, I can use the waning moon cycle to purge.

Home, celebratory martini with lunch, Remote Chat, which was fun. Took a rest, then, in the late afternoon, typed up my script coverage notes and sent them off. I will turn around one more script this week and answer questions on a script I covered. The rest of the weekend has to be about packing and purging. And maybe a little rest.

We also picked up a rental car from Budget this time, instead of Enterprise, for the trip. One of the headlights in the Rabbit is out, and I need an oil change; I didn’t want to risk the trip. The rental was a Nissan Altima. Instead of a tuna can on wheels, like the last rental, this one was like a rolling armchair. And only $6 more.

Prepared all the papers, maps, etc., that we needed. Went to bed early.

My mom didn’t sleep at all. Not knowing where we will move has taken a huge toll on us. I was up just before 4. We did our morning routines, and hit the road by 5. We made good time and hit our destination a little after 9. It took some doing to find the house, but we did.

We had a great meeting, loved-loved-loved the space. The landlord is a great guy, and owns most of the neighborhood. The space is amazing. He offered us the space, we said yes. We put down a deposit, he gave us a receipt, and we still have to do the paperwork. Until the paperwork is sorted, I will be nervous, but it looks like we have a new home. I’m not going to give any more details than that publicly until everything is signed.

We were practically shaking with relief when we got back to the car.

We drove straight back, trying to avoid the worst of the early Memorial Day weekend traffic. We swung by Burger King to pick up lunch – which made us both very, very sick. We got away with a hamburger once a few weeks ago, but this time, no dice.

Turned in the car, came home, and collapsed. I took care of watering the lawn and cleaning things up. My mom went to be a little after 6 PM. I was in bed not much past 7. We were wiped out.

We did manage a celebratory final session of the Knowledge Unicorns. I am so proud of these kids and what they achieved under difficult circumstances this school year. Best of all, they are all still alive, and so are their parents. I am honored to have been part of this.

Up early this morning. Still feel drained because of the adrenalin crash and the relief. I have to gear up for packing; on Tuesday, I will start getting quotes for the moving truck. I’m worried that the move will be expensive, although it is an in-state move.

I’ll have to purge more.

I’m coming to terms with the fact that I have to give up the dollhouse my dad built me, back in the 1970s, from cardboard and Contact paper. It’s a connection to my dad, who died in 1972. But I don’t have the room and it’s not like I’d set it up again. I’ll photograph it and let it go. I’d decided to give up the push mower, then decided to keep it, now I decided to give it up again. Even if/when we move to a house again, I’m going to hire someone to mow the lawn.

Saturn return life lesson learned: I hate mowing, and I’m not going to beat myself up about it.

We can’t take most of our big potted plants, so I’m going to ask some neighbors who garden if they want them; otherwise, I’ll put them up on craigslist.

I have to do a grocery run to Trader Joe’s; then I’m going to work on my final script of the week/month, and get back to packing.

Like I said, I’m going to be nervous until all the paperwork is signed, but fingers crossed that it all works out.

Peace, friends, and have a great Memorial Day weekend.

We will be packing.

Published in: on May 28, 2021 at 6:41 am  Comments (1)  

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  1. Great news! Fingers crossed …

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