Thurs. April 26, 2012: Working through a mini Dark Night of the Soul

Thursday, April 26, 2012
Waxing Moon
Saturn Retrograde
Pluto Retrograde
Sunny and cool

Yesterday just sucked. No two ways about it. Too many unpleasant things to be dealt with, all at once. By dinnertime, I just wanted to throw in the towel on just about everything and stay in bed for the next few weeks.

Not an option.

It was heartening to get into the workshops and see the leaps that some of my students have made in their work. There’s some outstanding stuff going on, and that brightened my mood enormously. I WANT them to succeed and achieve their writing dreams. They need to understand there’s no magic “Easy” button, that it takes work, commitment, persistence (because, really, if you can’t commit to a class of a week, a month, et al, how do you expect to commit to a career?). And if you quit every time it’s hard — it’s only going to get harder. When you triumph over a “hard” assignment, it’s that much more satisfying. And getting into the mindset of finishing what you start does more, in the long run, than anything other than writing steadily. Finish what you start until the end. See it through. It still might not sell. But the act of finishing gives you momentum into the next project. If you keep starting things and not finishing them, you sabotage yourself. You drain your energy on “maybes” instead of “dones.”

I still can’t completely shake this whatever-it-is. Yesterday, it was stomach bug and migraine. Today, my throat’s scratchy again. Time to get down to the stillroom and mix up some vile-tasting herbal concoction that’s going to blast it out.

My mom’s next surgery is today. She has a follow-up tomorrow, and the next few days are crazy busy.

I had a nightmare for the first time in months, too — set back in the old apartment.

But the sun is shining and the yard looks lovely, so I’m going to spend some time outside, too (although it’s kind of cold).


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  1. I hope your mom’s surgery goes well.

  2. Good luck to your mom for her surgery. And you sound a little run down. Mine seems to have turned into a recently-acquired allergy. I hope you feel better soon.

  3. Prayers and healing thoughts for your mom, toots.

    The nightmare is interesting. What stresses are you handling now that mirror that time in your life?

    • That is EXACTLY what it is, Lori. Very perceptive!

  4. Hoping and praying your Mom’s surgery goes well and that you feel better soon.

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