Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Waning Moon
Neptune Retrograde
Cloudy and cold

I’m very disappointed in myself. I only got about half done yesterday that needed to get done. I’m actually behind on a deadline, which never happens. I hit a wall.

Before anyone goes, “well, take time for yourself” – normally, as a freelancer, I’d just give myself the day off to recharge. Unfortunately, today, I can’t, because I’ve fallen behind on a deadline. I’m going to have to find a way to push through it.

I had a good start to the day: Worked on the Big Project, redrafted a press release, searched the job boards (some decent stuff, but nothing for me), wrote and sent out thank yous and testimonials for the conference, got out the contract for OLD-FASHIONED DETECTIVE WORK and worked on the author information sheets (gee, wouldn’t it be nice if the cover artist actually read it this time?), and wrote an article for a colleague’s newsletter. I even got some work done, in the evening, on the DEAD WELL DREAMS outline – I really hate the title. I like the cadence, but not the image – again, too much of a western. DEAD DREAMS WELL maybe? In case you didn’t figure it out, there’s a well involved.

One item on the list had to be pushed aside, because I had to ask the publisher a question, and wait for the answer, so I don’t feel bad about that, but the above was less than half of what was on the to-do list.

I hit a wall. Couldn’t string together a coherent sentence.

I used the ultimate avoidance mechanism – I started to clean my desk. I have three huge piles on my desk. The farthest left is letters, correspondence, and bills. Hate keeping bills on the desk, it interferes creatively, but if it’s not in front of me, it doesn’t get done. If I put them in a pretty little holder – or even folder – that’s where they stay. In my subconscious, if it’s put away, it’s done. If it’s on the desk, it’s pending. If it’s in something pretty on the desk and not waving at me – it’s not a priority. The middle pile is writing stuff I need to get to, or research I’m using, or sources, etc. That pile had grown far too large, and that’s what I tackled. I actually could put most of it in files and put it away – near by, so I can reach over and reference, but only about a half a dozen pages needed to stay there for daily use. The pile on the right is stuff I pull from the printer to file and that’s huge, because I haven’t gotten around to filing for far too long.

I only tackled the middle pile. I’m glad I did, but it makes the two side piles look even worse, and it didn’t help me get anything done from the list. My desk will never be completely clean, because I can’t work on a pristine desk – it’s sterile and stalls my thinking – but I’d like it to be in better shape than it’s been for the past few months. I’m getting there – but yesterday was not necessarily the best day to start!

The Nano site’s already crashed, which is frustrating. It usually doesn’t crash until the just before the first day. I’m glad I get to write with 100,000 of my closest friends, most of which I’ll never see or hear from again after December 1, but the technical glitches do get annoying, even though it’s free. One of the good things is that I’m getting emails from former N3s and other people with whom I exchanged information on previous Nanos who tell me how helpful my advice was in getting their books finished and edited past Nano, and thanking me – some of them apologizing for being defensive and not wanting to try my tips early on! Glad I can help. We’re all in this together.

An actor with whom I worked closely this past summer turned to me once and sighed, “I might as well do what you suggest the first time; you’re always right, and it saves a lot of grief.”

If only I was ALWAYS right! 😉

I’m going to take it easy on myself today, only push on the most pressing work and not stress about the rest. I’m scheduled to attend a local freelancers’ luncheon farther up the Hudson River, so that should be fun. I don’t know any of the people attending, so it will be a good chance to meet new people. Let’s hope I’m not too shy to say a word! And that the food is good.

I’m going to get the late assignment out before I go. That’s got to be my first priority. And then make sure I have enough and the correct business cards for this luncheon!


Devon’s Bookstore:

NEW!Sensory Perceptions: Techniques to Improve Your Writing Through the Six Senses by Devon Ellington. Use the six senses to take your writing to the next level via a series of sense-specific exercises. By the end of seven weeks, you complete seven short stories!. $1.29 USD. Here.

Hex Breaker
by Devon Ellington. A Jain Lazarus Adventure. Hex Breaker Jain Lazarus joins the crew of a cursed film, hoping to put to rest what was stirred up before more people die and the film is lost. Tough, practical Detective Wyatt East becomes her unlikely ally and lover on an adventure fighting zombies, ceremonial magicians, the town wife-beater, the messenger of the gods, and their own pasts.
$4.00 ebook/ $6.00 on CD from Firedrakes Weyr Publishing.
Visit the site for the Jain Lazarus adventures.

5 in 10: Create 5 Short Stories in Ten Weeks
by Devon Ellington. This ebooklet takes you from inspiration to writing to revision to marketing. By the end of ten weeks, you will have either 5 short stories or a good chunk of a novella complete. And it’s only 50 cents, USD. Here.

Writing Rituals: Ideas to Support Creativity by Cerridwen Iris Shea. This ebooklet contains several rituals to help you start writing, get you through writer’s block, and help send your work on its way. It’s only 39 cents USD. (Note: Cerridwen Iris Shea is one of the six names under which I publish). Here.

Full Circle: An Ars Concordia Anthology
. Edited by Colin Galbraith. This is a collection of short stories, poems, and other pieces by a writers’ group of which I am a member. My story is “Pauvre Bob”, set at Arlington Race Track in Illinois. You can download it free here:


  1. Don’t despair, Devon!!! You’ve got plenty of fire and gumption to spare… : ) No stress…

  2. 100,000 people. That’s an impressive number.
    I have days like this, but thankfully they pass quickly. For you too I’m sure!

  3. You’re…HUMAN??? Or did a circut just go haywire? 😉

    KIDDING. We all hit walls. It happens. And we pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and proceed–although sometimes in a different direction. Keep you chin up. If anyone can work through it, it’s you.

    Poor NaNo site. I think it crashes because it’s free.

  4. Keep going.. I’m feeling very similar this week. Urgh. Good luck. 🙂

  5. DEFINITELY post-Muse drag!

    Hope you enjoy your luncheon, it sounds like a lot of fun.

  6. I’m sorry to hear you’ve “hit a wall”. I have faith that you will work through things.
    As for the luncheon and being shy? I don’t believe it! *G*

  7. I’m sending you a pair of rock climbing shoes so you can climb right over that wall! Hang in there, Devon. I’ve no doubt that your persistence and belief in yourself will get you through. You’ve got what it takes!

  8. It’s been a put-your-head-down-and-keep-going kind of week, here, too!

    Take care.

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