June 21, 2007 — Summer Solstice

Thursday, June 21, 2007
Waxing Moon
Pluto Retrograde
Jupiter Retrograde
Mercury Retrograde
Sunny and warm
Summer Solstice

Today is the longest day and shortest night of the year. After today, which many mistakenly call “the first day” of Summer – it’s actually MIDsummer, the days start shortening, and the wheel begins its turn towards the dark half of the year.

Thanks so much for your support regarding the problems here in the building. In spite of my “itchy feet” and love of travel, I need a very secure home base. When that’s threatened, I go into warrior mode. Unfortunately, I’ve spent the better part of two years in that mode, and I have battle fatigue. Also, because the people with whom I’ve fought side by side for two years are equally fatigued, and they don’t want to believe that there are those who’ve switched sides (for money, of course) and don’t want to believe it’s all starting again, they simply ignore it and think it’ll go away. I’m being accused of being Cassandra, but you know what? She was RIGHT. And so am I. The emotional reality is that I’m deeply hurt that they’d pick the choice of ignorance rather than continue to fight for their homes, but the actual reality is that they owe me nothing – and, in the same vein, I owe them nothing. I need to do what’s best for me and my family. The choice of ignorance has never been what’s best, and I refuse it now. The challenge is to find the right place to live and not move in panic, which could land me in a worse spot than I am now. So it’s keeping up the guard on the home front, while trying to find a better situation. The stress of that is enormous, but that’s what the next few months will be like, until I can pull it off. It’s hard to go house-hunting when it’s not safe to leave the current home unattended.

Exhausted and achy. The track I’m currently doing on the show spends most of its time on the raked stage, which is hell on the body. So a whole different set of things hurt than do on some of the other tracks. Fortunately, I’m more on my own with this track, which is helpful, since I haven’t been particularly brilliant company lately.

Shows were fine, but I was glad to get out. Metro North, as usual, was a hassle.

A friend and I went out to dinner between shows, sitting outside at New World Grill. It was fun, but I ate too much and waddled through the second show.

I read a fantastic book over the past couple of days: Changeling by Yasmine Galenorn. As a story, it’s excellent. Reading it for structure as a writer was also a wonderful lesson – the depth to which she’s built the world of the story, the minutiae she knows (but doesn’t tell every detail – you just know SHE knows it, and it comes through in the story). The pace, the characters, the plot, the detail, the overall arcs were all great. I had two minor disagreements with it: the first is that a character that’s a potential romantic rival for the protagonist is tossed in late in the book only to be killed off in the big confrontation – it doesn’t matter as much as it should because we haven’t had the chance to know the character. It’s one of my problems as a writer, which is why I probably picked up on it – I don’t want to kill characters about which I care. And, since this is a book in a series, I wanted to know a little more about what happened to this point. Some indications are well-sprinkled throughout the book, but all I needed were about three or four more to feel like I was up to speed. Those are minor, minor things, and I bet if I wasn’t a writer, I wouldn’t have even picked up on them.

Her fantastic structure and world building made me think about my own work. I’ve built my world well in Shallid, but I’m still struggling in Chasing the Changeling. The biggest weakness in that book is that I haven’t figured out the world and its mythologies yet, and I need to do that in order for it to work.

First thing I have to do today is to finish up the report for Confidential Job #1 and get that off – it’s due today. Then, it’s back to the page. I’m going to keep the admin work to a minimum, if I can, and get some creative work done. There’s a lot on my plate for the next few days, and I’m trying to keep it all in balance, while still paying the bills.

Off to the theatre for a show tonight, and then no theatre until next week – the weekend is all about the NHL Draft and the America’s Cup Challenge.

Devon

Published in: on June 21, 2007 at 8:18 am  Comments (9)  

9 Comments

  1. Today has always been one of my favorite days – the longest day means more sunshine, more waking hours, and promises of sweet summer nights. I’m a hopeless water sign – romantic and lazy. :))

  2. Hon, is there any way to change the lock on your door to at least deter the fiends from doing the same to you?

  3. Happy Solstice 🙂 And I hope you get lots of work done with minimal interruption.

  4. All your energy is going towards defending your home, and I worry that you are going to make yourself ill. I am praying for you, for your housing situation.
    I hope you enjoy the time off from theater work this week.

  5. I hope you can soon find a nice home where you’ll feel comfortable and safe.

  6. I hope you’re able to enjoy your time off from the theater. Bummer about the housing situation, but as you said, it will come together for you.

  7. On the supposition that WordPress actually lets me comment from work …

    I’m treating the solstice as a new beginning, a second new year. Doing that has given me the motivation and confidence to “start again”, so to speak. Perhaps it might have the same effect on your home issues. Good luck with the house hunting.

    When I’m feeling crabby, I’m better at admin than at create.

    (And if this has posted, then WP must have a problem with my home pc/url/isp.)

  8. Yasemine Galenorn…what are the chances that’s a real name? Perhaps she write the world so well because she actually lives there?

  9. Good luck with the house-hunting. It’s a very stressful experience but well worth it in the end when you can finally feel settled and safe.


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